I Don’t Live There Anymore.

I was sitting on the train last week going to work.  I’d already finished writing my blog, I published it, put my laptop away, and switched on my new YouTube music app.  I will choose music over t.v. every day.  I realized I never turned on the t.v. once this whole weekend!  The great thing about the youtube app, is that it will custom build a personalized “radio” station based on other music you’ve watched on YouTube.  Genius.

I of course love American Idol, the Voice and basically any music talent show.  Danny Gokey was one of my first favorites from American Idol season 2009.   He auditioned for the show a mere four weeks after his wife died – he was only 28 years old and a widower.  I hadn’t really thought about him since that show aired, but probably because I listened to his music at some point in time, his newer songs hit my playlist.  I had no idea he’s become a Christian singer.  I was sitting on the train, sipping my coffee, looking out the window as the world rushed by on the train, I suddenly heard these lyrics from this song:

You’re shattered
Like you’ve never been before
The life you knew
In a thousand pieces on the floor
And words fall short in times like these
When this world drives you to your knees
You think you’re never gonna get back
To the you that used to be

Tell your heart to beat again
Close your eyes and breathe it in
Let the shadows fall away
Step into the light of grace
Yesterday’s a closing door
You don’t live there anymore
Say goodbye to where you’ve been
And tell your heart to beat again

If I wasn’t sitting on a train I think I may have cried right then and there.  It was as if I was listening to a song that was handwritten for me.  I’ve been struggling the last few months (years) still with the loss of my husband.  I am not sure you ever get over losing your spouse, but even though I’ve known that I have to get on with my life, a part of me is still looking behind my shoulder at what was once my life, and trying to overcome the loss of the life I thought I’d have with my husband and I growing old together.

But the problem with that is, if you are looking at the past, you never quite move on to the new life you are supposed to be living.  “Yesterday’s a closing door, you don’t live there anymore.”   I don’t know what it was, the timing, the song lyrics or what, but hearing those words was like a weight was lifted from my shoulders.  I have to stop living in the past and “say goodbye to where you’ve been and and tell your heart to beat again.”

No, that doesn’t mean I am ready to start dating.  But this was the first weekend in the longest time that I just savored every moment and soaked in this amazing life I have.  I have a roof over my head, food in the fridge, great family and friends.  I have so much to be thankful for.

I had plans to go to the Green City Market, but had a later than usual night on Friday night, so slept in a bit on Saturday.  Usually Saturday mornings I get up and start writing my to do list for the weekend.  The mantra for my weekends is usally must be productive!

Instead I got a cup of coffee and went out the hammock under the gazebo.  It was chilly – 62 degrees, but absolutely glorious.  No bugs, no humidity.  I laid in that hammock for an hour just enjoying the sounds of the birds and the dogs jumping in and out and sleeping on me from time to time.

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I went the the farmers market, only the one in the town next to mine.  I bought green beans, tomatoes, corn and mushrooms.

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I bought two containers of green beans and have used them all already!

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Our neighbors have very busy athletes and trying to get together with them is near impossible with their schedule.  As luck would have it, the husband is off work the next two weeks and they had a week where one sport ended before the next one began, so invited us over Saturday night.  They love my pizza, so they asked if I could make that. Yep – I can make pizza in my sleep!

I also wanted to do a “Weight Watcher” friendly appetizer board.  I was at Hannah’s coffee shop when I was telling her what I was going to make when she looked up at me and said “Mom, what the hell are you going to put that food on?!”  Ah, good question!  She loaded me one of her sheet trays and large parchment paper from work, and that worked perfectly.

I made balsamic garlic green beans (that were actually room temp), strawberries with a lemon curd dip, potato croquettes with jalapeno gold drizzle (think jalapeno jelly – so good!), shrimp cocktail with a chipotle mayo dip, sriracha almonds, cheese and crackers and roasted butternut squash bites.

Eventually my neighbor kept referring this as “the tray of happiness.”  It worked out perfect, but next time I’ll know to make four times the amount of shrimp (all 4 of their kids love shrimp) and leave the butternut squash.  I should have taken a picture of the “after” because all that was left was the butternut squash.  No worries, I brought the leftovers home for me. 

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This lemon curd dip.  Holy balls – you need to make this!  This will be your go to summer fruit dip, I promise you. I stumbled across this recipe from Iowa Girl Eats, so simple!  Lemon curd fruit dip.  The only thing I did was use regular Cool Whip, and added fresh lemon zest.  Perfect with strawberries.

I had to show you their great dane Lucy.  She is so loveable, but is giant like a small horse.  When I am sitting in a chair her head is the same level as mine!

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I had a leisurely Sunday morning, sitting outside and drinking coffee in 64 degree weather.  My Mom spent the afternoon with us.  Two major NSV for me – I bought two pairs of size 11 pants, and I bought two dresses for my upcoming vacation.  It’s been ages since I’ve worn a dress! 

My Momma is a beef lover, so I picked up two big sirloin steaks at The Fresh Market.  

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While the grill was going, we brought out some board games.  I somehow misplaced the tiles to the Scrabble game, but we pulled out Cranium.  It was so much fun, we laughed so much!

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I pulled the beef at 115 degrees and let it rest 20 minutes before slicing.  On the side is a grilled green bean and mushroom salad that was tossed in a tablespoon of Newman’s own balsamic dressing and an ounce of baby mozzarella, with corn on the cob.  12 delicious Sunday dinner points.

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My Mom left around 8:00 and the kadults and I decided to do a bonfire.  Usually Sunday night I am in complete “must get ready for the whole week” routine, but I decided to ditch that and just sit outside, talk with Hannah and Jacob and just listen to the crackle of the fire.  

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It was the perfect ending to a perfect weekend. 

“So get back up, take step one
Leave the darkness, feel the sun
‘Cause your story’s far from over
And your journey’s just begun!”

It’s time to say goodbye to my past because I don’t live there anymore.

 

On Top Of Old Smokey!

The days I think I am going to be busy at work, don’t turn out that way.  The days I think are not going to be too busy, are the days that are, and yesterday was one of them.  I hit the ground running, but luckily I have a stash of Premier Protein in the mini fridge near my desk, so I had this 2 smart point shake to start the day.

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A couple hours later when things settled down, I ate the second half of my breakfast – Chobani (2) with banana and a tablespoon of granola (1) with a hard boiled egg on the side (2).

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It was near 90 degrees when it was time to meet my sister for our lunch walk.  Instead of the pedway, we just did laps at Macy’s on State Street.  It’s about 10 stories high and we spent 40 minutes walking around and to the top.

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Look at how gorgeous this mosaic ceiling is!  Our reward for getting to the top, although you could take an elevator!  You can read about the history of the building here.  And after reading that article, I now realize it’s 9 stories tall.

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Lunch was a delicious chicken and mozzarella wrap with shredded rainbow carrots – I cooked the chicken in Trader Joe’s chile lime seasoning, so good.  But after I snapped this picture, I added Frank’s hot sauce 😀  The lavash is 2 points, the chicken was 4, the mozzarella 1 and cherries for dessert.  I’ve lucked out on cherries so far this year – absolutely delicious and I don’t mind spending $8 for a big bag of them.  I wouldn’t give a second thought to spending $8 on a bottle of wine!

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We are awaiting the power cord to be shipped so I can use my Insanity DVD’s.  So last night when I got home from work, I turned on FitTV on U-verse – you have to subscribe to that channel, but there are half a dozen free workouts every month.  I picked a 35 minute Jillian strength workout with hand weights – I used 5 pound weights – I am feeling it in my shoulders this morning!

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The kadults weren’t home, and the dogs were pretty good about staying on the couch during my workout – that was until it was time for stretching.  Um, apparently Rummy feels it’s perfectly acceptable to step on my stomach.

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And Roman was nice enough to bring me his toy, that was wet with his spit because he’d been chewing it the whole time I worked out.  

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This one is my favorite though – like “grandma, when are you going to be done and play with me?!!”

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I found some meatballs in my freezer – I remember they were from Sam’s Club.  I threw out the package but wrote on the ziploc that each meatball (which were big!) was 5 smart points.  I boiled water for pasta while I worked out, so this dinner came together in no time.  I had more of my zero point pasta sauce – I had about 1.2 cups of pasta (7) with the meatball (5) and a tablespoon of shaved Parmesan (1).  I added in the baby spinach at the end.

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This is pure comfort food in a bowl.  While my sister has pasta several times a week, I don’t have it that often, so it was a delicious treat.  After factoring in my coffee creamer throughout the day, I ended with 28/30 for the day, but with my 61 point day last Friday, I am negative 9 points for the week.

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I had to laugh at one of my first blog posts that was also called On Top Of Old Smokey – from October 2008!  It kind of looks like I threw the food in the garbage and then scooped it up and put it in a bowl and took a picture 😛

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Kym, looks like I used Italian seasoning or dried parsley back then too! 😀

I am on my way to Weight Watchers to weigh in this morning.  My sister has physical therapy for her knee, so I won’t meet up with her until our meeting at lunch.  Not sure what the scale will say, but I am glad after my high point day last Friday, that I stayed within my points the rest of the week.  We shall see!

Happy Thursday my friends! Make it a great day!

Kind of Insane?

Monday night I was sitting on the couch with Rummy.  It was really windy, when all of a sudden I heard this loud THUMP!  My neighbors tree fell into my driveway.  Luckily it missed the house, the cars and there was no damage other than having a giant tree in my driveway!

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Since we live in the sticks, there are no street lights and didn’t get a good look of how big the tree was until yesterday morning.  I made a phone call to have a guy give me an estimate – most of the tree was on my neighbors property, but she called me and told me she was going to have her tree guys come in the afternoon.

I had such a busy day at work yesterday, the guy who initially called me, called twice again but I couldn’t pick up the phone to answer it.  Hannah called me later, and I picked up the phone and she said “I am paying the guy to cut down the tree, you don’t have to worry about it.”  Nice!

Below is another slice of my everything but the bagel quiche – no worries, the blog with the recipe will be up later this week on The Chopping Block’s blog.  I seriously want to put this everything seasoning on . . . everything!  Breakfast came in at 8 points.

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My one boss had a filing yesterday and the other is going to be out of the office tomorrow and Friday and I never got to leave for lunch.  I told my sister and our friend Jenny to go ahead without me on the lunch walk.  By the time I filed everything, it was nearly 4 p.m. and I finally fixed my lunch!  4 ounces of beef, 3 tablespoons hummus, veggies and fruit.  7 smart points.

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I was able to leave on time, which was good.  I was actually fine with having a late lunch because that meant I could just do insanity as soon as I got home.  As I got on the train, I looked down on my fitbit to see how many steps I had gotten, I still did a lot of walking around in my office, and realized my fitbit died – no battery.  I got the low battery notice the day before, but I usually have a few days before it goes completely out.

So I stopped by CVS on my way home to pick up a new battery.  And guess what else I picked up?  A bag of gummy bears that were at the checkout.  Why on earth would I do that, when I was about to exercise?!!  It didn’t stop me from eating 3/4 of the bag though.  Two steps forward and one step back.

It was almost as if I was thinking “well, you had a 61 point day last Friday, so you’ll probably have a gain, so why not?

I threw the remainder of the candy in the garbage so it never entered the house.  We couldn’t find the cord to the Xbox to hook up the Insanity DVD.  Hannah ordered a new one, so we went with Plan B.  Hannah was somehow able to “airplay” a Shaun T free video that was online.  Um, I forgot how hard these videos are!  If you want to see part of my workout, Hannah did a bunch of boomerang videos and I put them on Instagram (mybizzykitchen). 

35 minutes later I was done – and I also remembered how good it felt to do the stretch at the end of his videos.  So kind of insane workout, even if it wasn’t Insanity. 😀

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I still wasn’t very hungry, but I fixed a grilled cheese sandwich – 2 slices healthy life bread (2) with an ounce of Trader Joe’s lite mozzarella (1) and an ounce of potato chips (4).

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I didn’t figure out what happened about the tree until I got home.  Apparently the guy I called to get the estimate from, after he came out and quoted me $300, I told him I was going to have to wait to hear from my neighbor who had her tree people coming later that afternoon.  Unbenownst to me, the guy I talked to came to the house, saw tree damage at my other neighbors house, and cleaned up all the tree debris and only charged us $200 for our portion.

Hannah and Jacob had earlier gotten saws and thought they could cut down the tree in our driveway, but after ten minutes, getting hardly anywhere, and sweating buckets, when the tree guy said he couldn’t a hold of me to get the go ahead, Hannah took charge and said “SOLD!”  She told me later if the quote had been $500 she would have paid it.  She said they were there for about 4 hours.  And when I got home last night, it’s as if it had never happened!

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Still not sure why I thought buying the gummy bears was a good idea, but after I put in all my food, I magically ended up with 30 points for the day.  Let’s be honest, not the healthiest 30 points I could have had, but that’s the best part about life, every day is a new day to make it a better one than the day before.

I still plan on doing a Shaun T video tonight, even if the cord hasn’t come yet – usually with Amazon prime we get stuff within a day, so we’ll see.  My quads are definintely feeling the workout from last night.  Hopefully today I’ll be able to get out at lunch.  I am night secretary tonight too, so that’s a variable, although the last few Wednesday’s no one has signed up and I am able to leave at 5:30.

Happy Wednesday – make it a great day!

It Was A Great Week– +.2

I had a great week last week.  So many non-scale victories!

  • drinking water instead of wine (that will change tonight 😀 )
  • fitting and more importantly ZIPPING up a pair of size 10 jeans
  • walking both Saturday and Sunday
  • buying myself flowers on the anniversary of my first date with Tony instead of eating 1/2 a box of donuts and a deep dish pizza
  • blue dot streak for the first week in June 
  • I ate really good food!  It was the first time I grilled salmon and it turned out delicious (still need to post that recipe!)

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So gaining .2 is nothing.  After a loss of 3.8 last week, I knew no matter how well I did the scale probably wouldn’t move much, and I am totally okay with that.  The advice I give everyone on Connect or IG if they are upset about not having a loss?  What you did the last 7 days won’t show up on the scale exactly on the 7th day.  When I lost 70 pounds back in 1999, I had TEN weeks of no loss or gain, but guess what?  In 15 months I lost 70 pounds – I stuck with it.  There is no end to this way of living, it’s called life, and really in the end, the number on the scale doesn’t tell any part of my story as a whole.  

The waffles in the above picture were my breakfast yesterday – the carrot cake waffles.  I made another batch the night before last.  These are definitely my new favorite waffle.  

I loved the WW meeting yesterday – people actually talked!  It wasn’t until I read your comments late last night on yesterdays post that it didn’t really dawn on me that locking the door was probably against a fire code, especially since it’s in the basement of a building!

One of the members is an older woman who purposely buys clothes too small, which gives her incentive to get into those articles of clothes.  She had a “white” party to go to, where everyone wheres white, and bought a dress in January that she wanted to wear.  And sure enough, by the time the party came around, she not only fit into the dress, but it was even a bit loose.  She said she basked in the compliments – love that story!

We also talked about vacations.  Typically, every year when vacation comes around, I don’t track a thing.  I’ll eat and drink pretty much anything and everything and deal with the weight gain when I get back.  My friend Kim just went on a cruise with her family for 5 days.  She gained 6 pounds and she fully expected that to be some “water” weight and she’d lose it in a couple weeks.  Well, it’s been 5 weeks and she’s only lost 1 pound of it, which made her realize that her choices in those 5 days continue to linger 5 weeks later.

So when I visit my family this summer in July, I am going to get my walking in, and choose a treat a day – it may be potato chips and dip, it may be ice cream, or it may be a pork sandwich, and still track.  I’ll also only be gone 5 days and I don’t want my choices those 5 days to linger like my friend’s did – so thank you for inspiring me to make better choices on my vacation!

I picked up Freshii’s lemongrass soup.  I chose not to get a protein and that was a mistake.  I was hungry within a couple hours of eating this.  This also was a bit more sweet than I remember – still spicy, but definitely something sweet in the broth.  I really need to make this at home.  

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I was night secretary last night and I had two attorneys sign up.  I finished at 6:10 and the last express train was at 6:25.   Have I mentioned that the train station is .7 miles from my office?  I managed to make it, running the last four blocks, only to have the train be delayed half way home for 20 minutes, so I didn’t get home until just after 8 p.m.

Jennie-O to the rescue for dinner!   I am a 2017 Ambassador with Jennie-O and every month I get a shipment – this month is turkey burgers.  These were delicious!  I really can’t wait to try these on the grill.  Each 1/3 pound burger is only 6 smart points, 250 calories and 25 grams of protein.  There are absolutely no fillers in these either – 0 grams of carbs.  And these don’t shrink like beef burgers, so look at how giant my burger was!

I used a 2 point Healthy Life bun, 1 ounce light Trader Joe’s cheese, sauteed mushrooms, a tiny bit of mustard (!) and the other half of my leftover baked potato from Wednesday night and made pan fried fries with 1/2 teaspoon of ghee to get them crispy.

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I am looking forward to tonight!  My husband’s nephews are coming over tonight – Bob and his wife Izzy and their two kids and Chris and a lady friend of his (not sure if its a girl friend or not, but we’ll see!)   I am kind of doing a grilled meat palooza – apple marinated pork tenderloin, chicken wings, knockwurst.  I am having my homemade salsa with chips and a fruit platter for appetizers, and I am making skinny strawberry shortcake for dessert.

It will be nice to see them – it’s been too long.  But I’ve realized that you have to make plans happen, and I am going to continue that mantra this summer before it gets away from me.

Happy Friday!  What’s on tap for your weekend?  I hope it’s filled with great friends, family and food.  Hugs!

I Am Heroic

I brought the last two of my carrot cake waffles to work yesterday – over the course of a day I made these, the dogs ate two of them as treats!  Two waffles (6), 1 ounce of deli ham (1) and 1/4 cup sf syrup (1).

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Since our office move, there are a few people I talked to throughout the day, but now because of how we are placed in the office, barely see each other.  My co-worker Dana and I decided to catch up at lunch and I took her to Revival Food Hall – she’d never been.

I had already scoped out what I was going to get.  While they have BBQ, tacos, and pizza, I went the healthy route and went to Brown Bag Seafood and got their protein box.  

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You can’t see it, but the bottom of the box is baby spinach with a light lemon vinaigrette, topped with a quinoa wild rice blend, grilled chicken breast and their veggie of the day, which was a mix of broccoli, green beans and brussels sprouts – best part ever?  Not an onion in the whole thing!  This was perfect – light, filling and I counted it as 10 points, 5 for the chicken and 5 for the quinoa mix (which I couldn’t even eat all of it.).

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My co-worker got Detroit style pizza, which I am not even sure I knew Detroit had it’s own pizza style – kind of looks like a pan pizza?  She said it was delicious though!

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We even had time to walk for 15 minutes before heading back to the office – couldn’t help but take a picture of this cute coffee shop to send to Hannah:

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I had grilled chicken Parmesan on my menu last night, but I was almost home from work when Hannah texted and wanted to know if I wanted to meet her and Jacob out for dinner.  Um, yes please!   I follow a woman on Instagram, and her daughter is about the same age as my daughter.  She routinely declines dinner out with her daughter because it doesn’t fit into her points for the day, or she won’t have control over naan bread if they go out for Indian food, and I thought how sad that she declines dinner over her daughter because of the food!

I don’t care if I only had 5 points left for the day, I can always make it work.  I kind of like the challenge of seeing how much food I can get for the points I have left, which last night was 11.  Mind you, I still have at least 20 weekly points I haven’t used and could have gotten pizza, beer, wine, burgers (or all of the above!) but I felt like eating better.

First up?  Lemon water instead of beer.  We drank so much water at dinner the server brought us a pitcher and put it on the table 😀

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All dinner entrees come with soup or salad. I chose the chicken tortilla soup – I wasn’t expecting it to be creamy, so I ate probably 3/4 of a cup and counted it as 4 points.

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Tony and I have been coming to this restaurant since we moved to this area 16 years ago.  We’ve gotten to know the owner and I’ve told him over and over that his portions are too big and his prices too low.  Every single person leaves with a to go box, which I tell him is profits just walking out the door, but he said everyone is used to big portions.  

This is their steak kebob with fresh steamed veggies and a baked potato.  I didn’t eat any of the potato, I ate one skewer of meat and veggies and brought the rest home.

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I weighed the beef when I got home – so there was nearly 11 ounces of beef on my plate – or basically three servings.  Crazy!

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My dinner came in at 10 points – made it under the wire with 1 point to spare 😀

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The leftovers are going to be my breakfast and lunch today – a breakfast baked potato and a beef and veggie stir fry for lunch – three meals for $15.95!

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I am on Day 7 of my Being Brave for 30 Days.  The topic yesterday was “I AM HEROIC.”  And what that means is that you have to be the hero in your life – you can’t rely on anyone else but yourself for your happiness – it begins with you and you being the Hero of your Own Story.

What I like about this challenge is that other people have left comments about how they will be their own Hero – here are some excerpts – you never know when something is going to jump out and resonate with you!

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Here are some of them:

“The hero (me) would stop blaming others for my own shortcoming.  The hero would take extreme ownership of his own situation.  He would own his failures.  Look forward and charge knowing the future is his for the taking.  The hero would surround himself with healthy influences.  He would not settle for less than he knows he’s worth.  I am the hero of my own story and only I have the final say in how my story unfolds.”

“The hero would be brave enough to recognize old habits, old patters, and decide to be kind instead of judgmental, realizing that self-love is the only path to real change.”

“I have to be my biggest cheerleader, my biggest supporter, and quit looking to others to rescue me.  I am the one that limits myself.  My confidence was severely shattered, and it’s been a struggle that I could really reach my goal…there’s no quick fix for this brokenness, I can sit in it or rise up and move on and do what I am called to do, and accomplish my deepest desires.  I WILL SUCCEED!”

“It’s impossible to put all your energy into something really difficult if everything is riding on the result.  The people who are the best at reaching big goas have an obsessive drive toward the goa, but also, they are able to break down the process of meeting the goal into tiny, bite-sized pieces and then take pleasure in completing each part.

When someone is unable to relish in the small steps, they just stop, because the process starts to seem hopeless if you constantly focus on the end.  You have to have a proclivity for hard work, combined with the ability to take joy in the process itself.”

I am loving these positive punches of inspiration I’ve been getting every day, that reminds me to make the best of each day, focus on what went well, and focus on how I can make the next day better.

Motivation for the Day:

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So excited for my WW Focus tonight! Open-mouthed smile  I’ll be sure to recap it tomorrow.  

How would you become the hero in your own story?  I’d love to hear!

Persistence

Remember how I told you I was going to start my summer of Insanity?  Um, turns out I cannot find my Insanity DVD’s.  I’ve looked everywhere, and they are nowhere to be found.  Mind you, they were bootleg copies from my step-son and his wife, but I am bummed I can’t find them.  But thanks to Amazon Prime, I’ll have a new set in a couple days.

My summer of Insanity though reminded me again that it’s persistence and not perfection that will get you to your goal.  When you ditch the all or nothing mentality, it makes like so much more. . . livable!

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I started work with a bang yesterday.  I always like to get to work early to have time to make my breakfast, eat it, drink coffee all before I have to clock in at 9:00.  It was 8:40 when I snapped this first shot of my breakfast when I heard my boss yell “Elizabeth!!!!!!”  Gah, I’ve told him a million times it’s Beth (or Biz even!) but he still calls me Elizabeth.  The crisis was handled and I just dove into the day.

This is an egg, baby potato lavash wrap for 5 points – 2 for the lavash, 2 for the potatoes (one which was purple!), lite TJ’s mozzarella (1) and fruit on the side.

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Before I knew it, I looked up and it was time to meet my sister for a walk.   As we were passing Michigan Avenue, she said “isn’t the Nutella Cafe on Michigan?”  We were only a block away so went to check it out.  Um, the lines were around the corner and it was an hour wait.  But get this, you still had to wait in line whether or not you were going to grab and go or just sit down!  The woman at the front did tell us that in the morning when they open it’s not that crowded.  I will tell you that delicious bread was looking at me as if to say “don’t you want to bring me home?  Think of the awesome breakfast panini’s you could make with me?!”

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Being on the 42nd floor, it’s the first time yesterday that I looked out our office windows and you saw nothing but white clouds.  Here are our walk pics of the day:

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Got back to work and lunch was a snap to put together – leftover chipotle in a baked sweet potato!  I knew the only thing that counted on top of my baked potato was the 2 ounces of steak for 2 points.  I hadn’t looked up what the points were for sweet potato.  After that picture was taken, I took off all the toppings and then scooped out the sweet potato and had just over a cup of sweet potato which was 7 smart points!  I would have guessed three, but I guess the natural sugar bumped the points – although I looked up the calories and a cup of sweet potato is only 114 calories.  This was delicious though – the spicy dressing (1 tablespoon ff ranch mixed with my homemade tomatillo salsa) with the smoky steak and sweetness of the potato – delish.

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I can’t remember if I told you or not, but Weight Watchers has a new program called WW Focus:

Break free of habits that hold you back 

Even with the best intentions, it’s easy to get stuck in old patterns.

WW Focus is a new workshop series by Weight Watchers that many are calling “the missing piece”.

This solution-focused workshop series guides you through mindfulness, energy, and life coaching exercises to help you gain insights, inspiration, and tools to focus on your wellbeing.

I got a free pass to go because I am a WW Ambassador, but when I signed up, didn’t realize that June 7 was also a Wednesday, which one of the two nights I stay late as night secretary.   When I asked if it would be a big deal to not work that night, I switched and stayed late last night – something I hadn’t planned on doing.

When I work the full two hours after work, I have 30 minutes before my next train AND it’s a 75 minute train ride home – no express, it hits every.single.stop.  

I knew Popeyes had blackened chicken strips, but those are something that aren’t readily available.  I asked for a large green beans, thinking that would hold me until I got home, but they didn’t have those either.  So I got the three piece spicy chicken tenders.  While the WW app said 8 points, one was really big, so I called it 12 points just to be safe. 

When I got home I had a bowl of fruit for dessert and called it a day.  Still came in under my points for the day, I have no guilt about eating fast food, although I know I have to pound the water today – um, let’s just say those chicken fingers contain nearly 1400 mg of sodium!

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I got my weekly fitbit stats: had I realized I was that close to 90,000 steps I would have walked to get there!  Not bad for having a desk job!

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I am a bit behind in my 30 days of brave challenge!  I realized I wasn’t getting my daily emails and they were going to spam.  So let’s talk about today’s Brave Act:  I AM ENOUGH.  “Spend time listening to your thoughts of ‘not enough.’  These voices of ‘not enough’ are there because there’s something to be learned.  Today, write down all the ways you’ve been telling yourself you are not enough.  Thank those thoughts for helping you better understand yourself, and let them go as you say, “I AM ENOUGH!”

“You are enough, just as you are.  Each emotion you feel, everything you do in your life, everything you do or do not do. . . where you are and who you are right now is enough.  It is perfect.  You are perfect enough.” – Melanie Jade

Now go make it a great day!

Weekly WI . . .-3.8

There is no secret to being successful on Weight Watchers.  You just have to track your food.  That’s it.  I don’t think it matters if you are a gym rat, get up at 4:30 to workout before work  – that is icing on the cake, but it really just comes down to the food.  Turns out if you don’t eat half a bag of Doritos, a box of wine or stop at CVS to pick up gummy bears, you can have a successful week!

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Our WW meeting finally got printable stickers!  They have had the machine I think for six months before it was up and running.  

I will be honest – after having gains the last three weeks, not going to lie, I almost threw in the towel to start over on June 1 – I could have gained 3.8 this last week if I hadn’t gotten my act together.

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So I will continue to be a blue dot goal getting this next week, so I can get back down to 20 pounds lost – where I was two months ago – but on the bright side, I am still down 17 pounds so far, and only 21 pounds away from the top of my weight loss goal of 140.  If I play my cards right, I could get there by the end of summer!

I realized I never took a picture of my breakfast since I posted my WI.  It was an egg white sammie wrap on lavash with fruit for 5 points.  

The Weight Watcher meeting was a good one.  VALUING yourself.  I view that as treating yourself as you would others, something that I am working really hard at doing.  Turning negative thoughts into positive ones.  Instead of dwelling on where I could be today if I had stayed on track these last couple months, I am giving myself a high five for not giving up even if there is a bump (or bag of Doritos) in the road. 

Lunch was I guess what you could call a beef fried rice.  One cup rice (6) with veggies, topped with 2 ounces of steak (2) and fresh crunchy bean sprouts.  I used House of Tsang Ginger Sriracha stirfry sauce – its only 1 point for 2 tablespoons, but really one tablespoon is enough – its spicy!

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I was so busy yesterday afternoon at work, I had to reheat that dish three times before I evenutually just threw it out – I ate about 3/4 of the plate.  I was night secretary tonight and didn’t get home until 7:45.  Hannah and Jacob are back on their keto diet, so all last night my kitchen smelled like bacon, sausage and chocolate cake.  Yep, there is even a keto chocolate cake recipe.  It looked amazing – kind of like a giant brownie.

I stopped at the farmers market on the way back from WW and picked up some tofu.  Phoenix Bean makes the best tofu – if you find them at any Chicagoland farmers market, I hightly recommend you get some.  I bought a different flavor – spicy Asian chili – and the tofu was cut into strips.  I made another kind of stirfry – basically to use up the veggies I had in my fridge:  zucchini, carrots, and broccoli.  I also made 10 mini cilantro wontons for 3 points.  Dinner came together in literally 10 minutes and I was able to snap a picture before it got too dark.  Dinner was 10 points.

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My friend Kris (hey!) sent me a link to a blog post that could not have been more appropriate to how I am feeling. 

I know I am not alone in the negative self thinking, but I love how this was worded: even batting .500 puts you in the hall of fame!

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One of the tools we did at the end of the meeting yesterday was to give just one word that positively describes you.  Some of the words chosen:  dedicated, helpful, funny, honest.  Do me a favor – can you just leave a comment and tell me one think you are proud of about yourself?  Let’s start the weekend off with some self-love to set the right tone for the weekend.

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Shelley, it’s been a while since I graced you with a snap chat filter –I thought this one wouldn’t freak you out too much:

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I sent that to my family and my brother Charlie responded back: “that crown is so you!” 

Have a fabulous Friday my friends!  See you on Monday (or on Instagram if you follow me there) 😀