Update for New Readers: My beloved husband of 14 years passed away after a short illness in December 2014. I am trying to pick up the pieces and move on with my life, and cooking in the kitchen really soothes my soul.
The pictures above were taken in October 2013. Here is how I like to pose when the paparazzi are close! The below picture was taken in February, 2011. 😀
42, 43 44 45 46 47 48 year old virgin. Oh, wait a second, that’s not right! My name is Biz and I am a 48-year old married widowed mom trying to become model ready for when I get the phone call to be on the cover of Maxim magazine. The paparazzi already follow me when I go to the grocery store, so I have to be prepared for that call any day!
I am an insulin dependent diabetic (although Type 2), trying to navigate all the delicious food out there, all the while maintaining my blood sugar levels. It’s quite a battle! If anyone has any tips out there on how they manage their diabetes, I am all ears!
I suppose I should give you a bit more background about me. I never had a weight problem at all growing up. In high school I played field hockey in the fall, then in the winter it was indoor track, spring was outdoor track and then in the summer there was softball.
If you are wondering, yes, my husband had thoughts that I was a lesbian since I played field hockey and softball. Oh, and in my early 20’s I may have been on a bowling team!
When you work out year round you can look like this:
Then fast forward to my senior year of high school – could I rock a field hockey outfit or what – its kind of like I am a professional model! (not! 😀 )
I decided to focus on field hockey in college and got a scholarship to Southern Illinois. After my freshman year, they dropped the hockey program because of funding, and I never went back to college.
So at age 19, 125 pounds, I took a desk job. Oh, and at night I worked at a bar. So there wasn’t much drinking or pizza eating at all – just all healthy salads and 2 hour workouts at the gym.
Well, fast foward 10 years and in 1999 I weighed in at 210 pounds. The funny thing is, I hardly ever noticed because 10 to 15 pound weight gain a year kind of sneaks up on you. Until your stomach reaches your steering wheel and you realize you are the only one who drives the car.
So in 1999, my sister and I joined Weight Watchers. That first month I lost 32 pounds to my sister’s 6 pounds. She asked what I was doing and I was like “I should have joined Weight Watchers years ago – I keep eating cheezy beefs and tacos and the weight is melting off of me!”
Um, turns out I was an undiagnosed pre-diabetic. All the syptoms: rapid weight loss, frequent urination I attributed to the fact that 1. I was losing weight because I went to Weight Watcher meetings and 2. they told me to drink more water so obviously I am going to pee more!
Within a year I lost 70 pounds and by May of 2000, right before I met my amazing husband!, I was at my lowest adult weight of 138. After which I quickly gained 20 pounds in six months while eating out with my husband!
But in 2001, I got back down to between 135 -140 and kept that off for years until I was put on insulin in 2008. Suddenly all the foods that I couldn’t even look at were within my reach – just take more insulin! And have gained 30 pounds since then.
I am considered a Type 2, insulin dependent diabetic. Now that I am in my 40’s, I am realizing this weight loss thing is a slow and steady progress, but I will not give up!
Thanks for stopping by – hope you find some recipes you like! 😀
* Disclaimer – while I am diabetic, I am not a registered dietician or even remotely an expert on diabetes. Since I am on insulin, I can eat whatever I want, but hope that with diet and exercise, and maybe saying no to that second piece of pizza, I can get in a more healthier weight range.
And I’ll leave you with my favorite adolescent photo of me – klassy, huh?! 😀
Feel free to reach me anytime at email@example.com. 😀