It’s A Wonderful Life

This weekend was all the feels.  Happy for my step-son Joe and his wife celebrating the beginning of his 28th year on this earth with a trip to Belize.  Then Friday remembering all the things I used to do for Tony’s birthday, and September 22nd no longer felt special to me – it was just another day. 

I went out for Happy Hour as one of the paralegals I was worked for was leaving.  I hardly ever went out after work because I always just wanted to come home to Tony.  It’s funny, but even after nearly three years of him being gone, I still check my phone at times thinking “did he text me asking when I’d be home?”  I had three beers at happy hour and got home around 9.  Hannah and Jacob ordered pizza and I had some of that and another glass of wine.  I was having a pity party for one.

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I took pictures of everything I ate and drank, and when I tallied the damage Saturday morning, I had 49 points for “dinner.”   Part of me just wanted to go right back to bed, but I decided to face the music and make the 8:30 Weight Watchers meeting.

I lost 1.2.

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I allowed myself to let one night of out of control change my whole mindset of all the good things I did all week.  I also realize that I can’t do that every week, but I woke up Saturday with a new mindset.  I have so much good going on in my life right now, with Hannah and Jacob getting married in a few weeks, Jacob getting a job in his field, celebrating my Mom’s 77th birthday.  It’s a Wonderful Life.

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Hannah drove to my Mom’s house (she loves driving!) and I was playing around with the snap chat filters – this picture above had me laughing so hard – it thought my neck was another face!   Laughing is so good for my soul.  It’s a Wonderful Life.

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My Mom and Hannah – hard to believe my Mom’s oldest grandchild Hannah is going to be 26 on her next birthday!  

We did a very easy Mexican fiesta, where, as normal, I made enough food for a family of 15.  It’s always my rule of thumb to have too much than not enough.  To have a life where you have too much food?  It’s a Wonderful Life

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I realized I took mostly videos and posted them to my Instagram story, so I’ll post the beef marinade later this week – I made ground beef tacos as well as steak tacos.  On the side was my stovetop refried beans – so good!

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My sister bought this chocolate pie for dessert.  It was 6 servings, and there were six of us – perfect!  Until I scanned the box and discovered that one slice of pie was TWENTY SIX points.  So I had a fork bite, and had a glass of wine for dessert.  😛

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Sunday morning has to be my favorite day of the week.  While I am productive, there seems to be a bit of a slower pace, time for that extra cup of coffee.  It’s a Wonderful Life.

I made Mexican breakfast pizza with some of the leftovers for brunch – this was 11 points and kept me full for hours.  So much so, that I only had granola and a banana before hitting the gym.  Any day I get to have pizza – it’s a Wonderful Life!

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Hannah told me on Saturday that my closet was bothering her.  Yes, I said that correctly.  MY closet was bothering her. She opened at the coffee shop yesterday, but at around 11:30 she texted me “are you ready?”  

She came home and pulled EVERYTHING out of my closet so it was completely empty. Again, I realized I took videos for my Instagram story, so took screen shots below, but you’ll get the idea.  Hannah said that the key to a closet is that someone could walk in, put an outfit together and you’d want to wear it.  If I hadn’t worn it in six months, if it was too big or too small, it went to the donation pile.

Ignore the pet stains in my carpet, which Hannah assures me when she rents a carpet cleaner, they will come up 😀

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Guess what?  I donated a CONTRUCTION size bag of clothes yesterday. 

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And those are my work clothes that made the cut.

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And in case you are wondering, yes I do have enough pajamas and comfy clothes to have a dedicated basket for them 😀  Having a daughter with excellent organizational skills?  It’s a Wonderful Life.

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The closet project only took two hours from beginning to end.  Hannah went to take a nap, and I went to the gym.  When I was just about to start my 30 minute circuit, I saw this couple below.  I believe that maybe the wife had a stroke, but I could hear her husband tell her “you’ll get your strength back!”  It was so touching how he was encouraging her as he pushed her to different exercise equipment.

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I then realized It’s a Wonderful Life that I am ABLE to workout.  I shouldn’t look at it as “I have to work out” rather “I can work out!”  It really pushed my workout.  I did the 30 minute circuit.

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Then did a walk/jog/sprint on the treadmill – my last one minute sprint was at 6.6 mph.  It’s a Wonderful Life.

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Do you guys rememer the episode of Seinfeld where Jerry dated a girl with man hands?  As soon as I saw this picture, that’s exactly what I thought of and started laughing out loud in the gym bathroom.  #klassy

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So while my weekend was an emotional roller coaster, I feel good about where I am.  I have so much to be thankful for and realize that live is for the living.  And while Tony isn’t here anymore, I am blessed to have had a love like I did.

It’s a Wonderful Life.

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  • Kimberly
    September 25, 2017 at 7:53 am

    Your attitude is awesome! Loved this post.

    • Biz319
      September 26, 2017 at 8:11 pm

      Thanks Kim! 😀

  • Lisa Wilton
    September 25, 2017 at 8:14 am

    Ha Ha Ha….I love that “Man Hands” episode! I also love a good “build your own taco” extravaganza. Yours looks really delicious!

    • Biz319
      September 26, 2017 at 8:12 pm

      Thanks Lisa! Wish I lived closer so I could eat your food! 😀

  • Marcia
    September 25, 2017 at 9:13 am

    Can I hire Hannah to clean out my closet???

    • Biz319
      September 26, 2017 at 8:13 pm

      If you lived closer I would send her over for free! 😀

  • Beth Sher
    September 25, 2017 at 9:57 am

    Great post Biz. I tend to get caught up in the little things and not look at the big picture. It is a wonderful life and I am blessed. It’s great that you are able to appreciate all that you have along with all that you’ve lost.

    • Biz319
      September 26, 2017 at 8:14 pm

      Thanks B. Glad this post resonated with you – we need to figure out a meet up one day! 😀

  • Lisa
    September 25, 2017 at 11:12 am

    That couple at the gym gave me lots of feels. What an amazing partner.

    • Biz319
      September 26, 2017 at 8:15 pm

      They were so cute! Truly the epitome of for better or worse 😀

  • Shelley B
    September 25, 2017 at 1:20 pm

    Overall a good weekend – it’s hard when emotions get the best of you, but sounds like you rallied nicely. I recently cleaned out my closet…it’s a good feeling, isn’t it? Along with regular clothes, I finally got rid of a bunch of running shirts that were super old, or race shirts that I just never wore. I still have plenty though.

    The taco fiesta looks yummy, but I am wondering about the pie – 26 points seems excessive…wouldn’t that be well over 1,000 calories for a slice? Wonder if your app was mistaken on that one.

    • Biz319
      September 26, 2017 at 8:19 pm

      Do you know what was crazy Shelley? I had TWENTY FIVE single socks that didn’t have a match – even after I washed everything I owned. I threw them all out 😀

      The thing about the WW points is that it really adds points to stuff high in sugar – one slice of that pie was still 550 calories, but nearly 60 grams of sugar!

      And it does feel good to have a clean closet 😀

  • Bonnie Velatini
    September 26, 2017 at 6:03 am

    16 days ago we survived Irma. Yesterday for the first time, we had power for the whole day and can use water cautiously and sewerage is going down in the streets. This is the first post I
    have read since before Irma and it had a special meaning to me. You are such an amazing inspiration. Life must go on and sometimes it is hard to realize that. But now the very little things we usually take for granted become very special. Thank you for being the special person you are. We love you in a very special way.

    • Biz319
      September 26, 2017 at 8:22 pm

      I am so happy you guys are okay – and weird that after talking to you, that both of us had trouble with Tony’s birthday this year – I don’t know what it was about this year, but I love you guys!

  • Kym
    September 26, 2017 at 7:03 am

    Ok, I’m rethinking Hannah’s help on my closets. I’m truly amazed at the great job she does. I have to admit I’m a little afraid too. The couple at the gym was so sweet. I love that. I could eat some form of Mexican food every day so having all those left over would be okay with me. What a great attitude for the day .

    • Biz319
      September 26, 2017 at 8:23 pm

      She really has a talent – which is why I sometime wonder how she spit out of me!

  • Hannah
    September 26, 2017 at 3:44 pm

    I am truly blessed to have a mother like you- and I remind myself everyday of how lucky I am for that. You’re strong & make living life after losing your best friend look easy- which is why it’s so important to remind yourself of how far you’ve come 🙂 Thanks for an awesome weekend- hope your day is going good! Love you over the moon & back X

    • Biz319
      September 26, 2017 at 7:23 pm

      I love you more Hannah! Best comment evah! ❤️

  • Lynn
    September 28, 2017 at 6:01 am

    I read all your posts, but this one was very touching. Being a widow myself there is always going to be the tug of memories that make you revisit the past, but you have worked hard to enjoy your life and move forward and that I very much admire. I believe living your best life after they are gone honors our best friend.